Day 06: 30 Interesting Facts About Myself

1. I am left handed & this complicates my school life in more ways than one.
2.I am half Puerto Rican and half Montenegrin.
3. I have two different shaped ears.
4. I absolutely hate my hands.
5. I've always had a weird fear of not being able to have children.
6. I can strike up a conversation with just about anyone.
7. My favorite color is green, but I don't own anything green.
8. I like Vanilla and Chocolate but prefer them to be together.
9. I hate planes but I like to travel to different places.
10. I am clean and organized, but only in spurts.
11. I've changed my profession in my head a million and one times.
12. I'm scared of the future.
13. I guess I'm a child at heart.
14. I'm the biggest hopeless romantic, my boyfriend could tell you.
15. I love reading, but barely do.
16. My zodiac sign is a Leo and it fits me, almost completely
17. I think of myself as outgoing but I don't trust many people and have very few friends.
18. I was bullied in middle school which helped shape how I interact with people today.
19. I am a total foodie. Food makes me so happy.
20. I really, really hate my middle name. If you know it, I love you.
21. I live for rollercoasters, they're my favorite part of amusement parks.
22. With people that I love, I find it hard regulating my emotions.
23. I really, really want a dog but no one will allow me to have one.
24. I'm more sensitive than I would like to admit.
25. I used to play the flute really well.
26. I love strawberry milkshakes but I hate strawberry ice cream.
27. I need some sort of blanket to sleep, regardless of how hot it is.
28. My favorite breakfast meal is anything other than breakfast.
29. I think about my loved ones dying a lot.
30. I'm really bad at thinking about interesting things about me.

Day 05: A Time I Thought About Ending My Own Life

I, honestly, never seriously thought about committing suicide. I've been through hard times, where I asked myself why my life was the way it was. I've had times where I've been extremely depressed and angry at everything and everyone. I've had plenty of those times. I just never really thought about ending my life. I've always had a good sense that life has it's ups and it's downs and eventually, things will get better. I also never really thought that my problems were worth dying over. Not that they weren't serious problems but I felt as though life is too precious and my family doesn't deserve to feel the grief and pain of my death.

Everyone's life is different and everyone is going through something, small or big. We need to have compassion for others because we never know what they may be going through. Whenever I'm feeling down about life, I usually take a breath, slow things down and realize that it could be worse. There is always someone that has it worse than you. And that doesn't make your problems any less significant, but it helps to put things in perspective.

Suicide is not a light subject and I am grateful that I don't know anyone that is suicidal. But the topic of suicide is complex and beyond my grasp. I can only hope to be someone's outlet if anyone in my life ever needs me.

Day 04: My Views On Religion

I believe that everyone gets the choice to believe in whatever or whomever they want. If someone chooses to believe in a God, multiple Gods or no God, who am I to judge or to tell them that they're wrong?

I grew up in a family that was not religious, but I always wanted to be. I begged my father to bring me to church a few times, which he did, until he didn't anymore. Luckily for me, my family put me into an all-girl Catholic high school. I was eager to learn everything about religion and Catholicism, I even remember asking a girl if she could write down the prayers that everyone would say during the day. I learned them quickly and I tried to learn as much as I could. However, in religion class, I was never comfortable. I found myself questioning many things and couldn't let go of these questions. I didn't like the answers that my teachers would give me because they didn't seem like actual answers. Before I knew it, I found myself disliking Catholicism and it's beliefs. I never quite understood it.

Soon, I realized that many Christian denominations were too similar to Catholicism. Personally, I haven't found a religion that I would feel comfortable following. Whenever I'm asked about religion, I usually say that I don't believe in religion, but I believe in a God or a higher being of some sort. I feel as though many religions are a form of power or control over their people. I find that religions are extremely contradicting, with rules and regulations of what you "shouldn't be." I also see many religious people that do cruel things to others, because of their religious beliefs. I don't believe in any of that. However, I would never bash anyone for believing in any religion. Your beliefs may not be mine but they are still equally as important.

Even though I say I believe in God, that's something that I still struggle with everyday. I want to feel comfortable with that idea and possibly in the future, comfortable with a religion. At the moment, however, I believe I'm a good person and God would be able to see that. That's all.

Day 03: My Views on Drugs & Alcohol

I think it's up to people if they want to partake in any alcohol or drugs. Personally, I enjoy a drink socially from time to time and I don't do any drugs. That doesn't mean that I look down on those who decide to.

Overall, I believe that your body is meant to be taken care of. There is a thin line between enjoying alcohol socially and relying on it. I think when alcohol is drunk responsibly and in moderation, I think it's acceptable.

How you treat your body is how your body will treat you. People sometimes take their health for granted. With drug use, I think it's important to stay clear of drugs. Drugs have temporary "benefits" and do long term damage, physically and mentally.

I'm not going to say "Just Say No", but you catch my drift.

What are your views on this topic? Let me know. 

Day 02: Where I'd Like to Be in 10 Years

In ten years, I'm going to be 31 years old. If you would've asked me this question years ago, I would've probably been able to give you a full, detailed plan of where I would like to be. Now, being slightly older, I now know that it isn't that simple.

There's only a couple things that I would like to have accomplished by 31 years old.

In ten years time, I'd like to have my career in place

The first and most important thing that I would like to have complete by 31 years old is my career. I would like to already have a position, doing what I love, in my profession. I would like to be successful in what I am doing and also, most importantly, enjoying what I am doing. 

In ten years time, I'd like to own my own home. 

I want to own my own home by 31 years old. This might be difficult to accomplish but it would definitely be ideal. I want to live in a spacious, cozy home. Not too big of a home, maybe a three bedroom house. I want to have a backyard, big enough to have a dog and kids play. And a pool, can't forget about the pool. 

In ten years time, I would like to have traveled the world 

No, I don't mean the entire world, of course. But I would like to have started to travel and see different places. The world is too big to be cooped up in one city for your whole life. I want to travel to different cities, different beautiful places and experience different cultures and people. 

In ten years time, I'd like to have started my own family. 

By 31 years old, I would love to already be married to my hunny and have a child. Ideally, I would want to have two kids, so I'd probably be working on my second. I also want a dog, definitely. Probably the cutest, friendliest dog known to man. 

Now you know my life plan, what's yours? Where do you see yourself in 10 years? 

Day 01: My Current Relationship

Where do I start?

I've been in a relationship with my boyfriend for almost 5 years now. It seems like just yesterday though, that I first saw him. It wasn't love at first sight. Our story wasn't entirely like a fairytale. The way we fell in love is kind of funny and embarrassing at the same time, but I won't bore you with all those details.

When I say it wasn't a fairytale, I mean that when I first met him, we didn't pay much attention to each other. We met through a mutual friend and he was always, well, there. He was just a guy I knew and I was just a girl he knew. We weren't interested in each other until we actually got to know each other. At that point, it did quickly become a fairytale. It seemed almost like a puzzle piece, he just seemed to fit. Our first real conversation was insane. We had a "Where have you been?" moment and I truly noticed him for the first time. Some parts are blurry and I can't remember every detail clearly now, but I do remember that it was a turning point in my life. That time in my life is something that I hold really close to my heart.

Over the 5 years, we've changed so much. Our relationship and the individuals that we are have changed. It's nice to spend your life with someone and be able to change and mature alongside them. We started dating when we were only 17 years old and now, it seems as though that was forever ago. Being at an age now where we're adults and making real life decisions for ourselves, it's crazy to think that we met at such a different place in our lives.

I don't know how to describe him. He is everything  that I would want in a man and everything that I need. It's insane. There isn't one quality or trait that I would change about him. He's not perfect and we are total opposites. I guess, the phrase, "Opposites attract" really does apply here. However, I think, when you are able to find someone that compliments you and makes you a better version of yourself, is when you know that you've found someone for you. He's incredibly smart, funny and charming, he challenges me, he makes me better... the list goes on but the most important thing is, he's my best friend.

Our relationship, by no means, is perfect. We do have arguments and sometimes annoy the shit out of each other. But that's normal and it's a part of being in a relationship. Every relationship, whether it's your friends, family or significant others will have it's ups and downs. What's important is finding someone that you are willing to have those downs with.

I couldn't imagine my life without him. After being with someone and spending years of your life with them, they become a part of you. You share special moments and a special bond with them. Certain places, songs, phrases and scents will remind you of them. Having someone that you're proud to call your someone, is special.

Maybe relationships aren't supposed to be how they appear in the movies or in a fairytale story. As much as I would love to believe that life is a romance movie, it isn't. But luckily, I've found someone who makes me feel as though it is.

30 Day Blogging Challenge

So, I decided, for the month of May, that I would embark on this 30 Day Blogging Challenge. This picture shows the 30 posts that I'm supposed to write every day for the month of May. Each day is assigned a different, random post. 

This might be somewhat hard, with the end of my semester coming, but I'm willing to accept the challenge. One of the main reasons why I want to do this is so that you can get to know me better. Some of these posts are very random, something that I wouldn't even think to write about and hopefully, I can actually come up with quality writing. 

We shall see.. 

I  challenge any blogger that reads this post.. Do This Challenge!